It’s time I tell you what my other realization that night was.
As already mentioned, I was online, jumping from one site to the next, oblivious to the passing hours. I got to thinking about my life somehow, and it was serious. I like my work, and I’m surrounded by family and friends. I know I’m in a good place, and I can say I feel settled somehow.
Therein lies the glitch. I never want to get too comfortable.
Like most everyone, there are so many things I want to do, to see, to experience. I know that the world has so much to offer, and the thought that I’m not actually exerting enough effort to make things happen, agonizes me. What’s stopping me, and what am I waiting for? Absolutely nothing and something. It sort of seems complicated, but what I figured out is this: If I so choose, there is nothing that can keep me from doing or being what I want, and whatever that something is, it will follow.
I understand too that time simply does not wait. It does not care if you’d like to stop for a minute and take a breather. It marches on, with or without you. That may sound cruel, but I’m sure life is made all the more better with this fundamental truth in place. It pushes us forward, drives us towards the next step in the cycle.
So the world and time are telling me to get my settled ass moving and eschew my lazy ways.
With 45+ hour work weeks and erratic days off, I always felt I just don’t have the time to pursue my other interests and stuff I care about. I am not allowing myself that excuse anymore. I have to start doing and quit the talking. I’m not going out to change the world or to single-handedly stop global warming though. I want to be realistic with my goals, and I want to be able to accomplish them in a reasonable time frame.
I will be celebrating my 25th birthday in June next year, and it’s the perfect deadline for this mission I’m setting for myself. I’ve drawn up a to-do list with an approximate eight-month shelf-life. That should keep me on my toes. The tasks I chose are hardly life-changing but definitely designed to start and keep the ball rolling. Who knows, by the time I’m done with this, I’d have more than enough chutzpah to chase after bigger, bolder dreams.
Without further ado, here are my 25 things to do before turning 25:
1) Learn how to swim properly – a prerequisite to many other things
2) Have my back checked
3) Dye/perm/rebond/______ my hair
4) Drive myself. For real. – this will make my dad happy
5) Cook dinner at least 2x per week for a month – this will make my mom happy
6) Plant a tree – or join a clean-up drive
7) Start dancing again = love
8) Write a short story
9) Learn how to surf
10) Earn my PADI diver’s license
11) Travel to a foreign country by myself
12) Kiss a total stranger – may or may not be related to #11
13) Go bungee-jumping
14) Learn to play the guitar – must get over painful fingers
15) Tell a guy that I like him – only if I really do
16) Join a rally in Mendiola
17) Go on a blind date – just because
18) Go spelunking in Puerto Prinsesa or Sagada
19) Begin to learn Spanish
20) Swim with whale sharks and climb Mt. Mayon – Bicol, I’m still itching to go to you
21) Sing on a stage in front of a crowd
22) Take an art class
23) Submit an article
24) Treat the whole family to a vacation – this will make everyone happy
25) Apply for grad school – finally
And here I go. Wish me luck!